Mikä hitto tää draaman määrä on ?

kertoisko joku vähän ?

I just have one question. What the heck did I do wrong this time ? I didn't assume ANYTHING ELSE but a friendship but obviously that's out of the league. And let me say that it is not okay to me that you just kiss me when ever you want then a minute later you're like well okay, it was my fault that you kissed me. Then later you're all over me, and again, that's my fault.

And a month later when I want to talk about how you've been acting, how you've talked to me, you just tell me "Try to live with it". And all I ever wanted was a friendship. But obviously you expected me to want something more. But sure, have nice life, I really don't care anymore.

So what did I learn ? I learned that boys sucks out loud.

I suck. I screwed my english test to day, got 75/99 points of writing comprehetion and screwed hearing comprehetion on friday. And I got only 7 of my test which I did on friday, u know, social studies or whatever they were. I'm going to write it in next spring and I would like to get a GOOD grade from it (maybe M or E and I don't know what are the comperable grades in USA or in Br..).


I totally suck nowadays. Can't handle english. Can't handle history. Can't handle my studies... I suck, literally.

At work. Otherwise it'd be totally okay if I wouldn't have English test tomorrow. Luckily it's quite quiet here so I can read words and phrases and little grammar. Some friggin scientific texts and words ... Lucky me. But I rather do English exam than my math.. I have a economic math course and I don't understand a thing. I just don't wanna fail it cuz I'm going to write math in my matriculation exams. I'm a lil bit better in math than in sswedish. And oh yeah, I also ave Swedish test next week so yay for failing. It's going to be epic fail :D and Swedish is not that hard after all, I'm just not that into it that I want to learn to speak it ( and I know, it is useful to handle many languages but I am not going to work in sweden.. Never, not gonna happen ).

And it's quiet again in here. A moment ago here was a few customers and it was nice to do somethig else than sit on my ass and update my LJ. Not that I don't like to update lj, butif I come at work it would be nice to have something to do. Recently it's been really boring out here cuz there's just not enough customers. But in summer I hope there wouldn't be any cuz it crazy in here then ! You practically don't have time to catch you're breath cuz there's customers everywhere. They could spread constantly during the year. But unfortunately they tend to pack to the summer. I feel desperate even for thought working here at summer. I'm gonna go crazy.

And just so I have something to do I have to tell you guys something; my mum agreed that I can go to L.A when I graduate from high school ! I'm so excited ! But before I can go I really have to work hard that I graduate, it's not the typical kind of exam we have to do before we can graduate.. How nice, totally waiting those exams ! But more I'm waiting my trip to L.A and my mum promised to buy me tickets to L.A con if I finish high school in time ;D if there's L.A con next year .. Hopefully there is !!

Geez, test week stars 2morro with social studies or what ever that subject is called. I just haven't read and I don't handle the things of taxation or politics (taxation is politic right ?=D ) But I do know what does the inflation mean, u must be surprised now !

now, gotta start read again so I'll get a great grade !

I had a really great weekend, today's hangover probably told it. Thanks to my pretty much closest friend, I had great time @ ur place, wanna take rerun sometime soon if possible. And I realized few things while being there and now I see everything clearly - took two years to realize. Slow, me ? Nah.

Mmm.. I have a swedish wordtest 2morro (svenska ordprovet, va kul !) and I haven't opened the book yet. Probably not going to open it till 2morro morning and the result will be brilliant. And I have to do some ethic essay by thursday; I haven't started. Umm, I havent done anything during this period. Well, if I start doing it tomorrow and work it till thursday i think I get it done in time. (yeah, the only problem is that there has to be 20 essay kind of papers) I am so screwed.

And I just wanna cry; I'm listening Jason Manns ft. Jensen Ackles - Crazy Love.. It brings so much memories on my mind that I just wanna get back there when things were good, the time when I didn't even remember my bff's name (sry for that love), the time when I met Jensen Ackles, when I saw him singing this song, when I saw him on stage just answering fans questions, when I was amazed by him, he was just so great person (I think he still is!). I miss year 2007.

but now, I think I'll go to bed think some school things and where to start tomorrow morning. And who said I leave things at the eleventh hour ?

ps. My horse is getting a baby in two weeks ! So excited. ;D
pps. Like you probably noticed, I changed my layout cuz I got bored with all the header stuff, I don't know how to make good-looking header so this solution is better.

Mmmmm, I wanted to take back my old header, which I btw love, cuz it's more like me nowadays than Edward Cullen/Robert Pattinson header with some Paramore lyrics on it.. Geez, I was out of my mind for couple of months. But I'm back on the track again; found Supernatural and especially Jensen again. Man, I've totally forgotten how amazing actor he is ! He's just so talented that he doesn't even have to do anything and he impress people (Misha Collins does the same thing, they are so great with Jensen). And Jensen is pretty much the reason why I watch Supernatural; he's progressing all the time, even it sounds unbelievalbe but he honestly does, in every episode, he's so much better than an episode before. I just can't believe how he does that, but he's definitely one of the best actors in the world. And oh yeah, that's only my opinion, but Jensen <3

But what the heck has happened to Jared, or his character, Sam ?! He's just so.. Idiot, gayish, dork and more than that. He's just not the Sammy I loved, not the sammy I like to watch. He's just nothing I used to like, actually there's nothing I like him anymore. He's just not the pie deliverer I loved over a year ago. :< I don't know about Jared, I can't enjoy he's work cuz the character sucks out loud.. But waiting for better episodes, waiting for a better season.

I noticed it's really common to write a review about the episode you've seen so I decided I could do the same. Like anyone would be interested what I have to say :___D
So, I watched the newest episode of Supernatural, On the Head of a Pin. I honestly don't know what to think about it, on the other hand it was great, I really liked Jensen and Misha's (no shit! gotta be surprise for you!) work but on the other hand, I felt like something's missing and I don't know what. Maybe it was Sam. I don't know. Anyhow.. I really liked the wings which burned to the earth when angels died. That was one good things in this episode.
Dean torturing Alistair ? I did like it but I also felt ridiculous when I watched it. The avenge Dean wanted to get for the things Alistair made him to do in Hell was great, Jensen did amazing job to handle all the emotions Dean had, all the faces he had, man.. I was touched, I almost could felt his pain, I can only imagine how that would've felt to get some sort of revenge. Payback is a bitch they say. So once again, Jensen did AMAZING job, I officially adore him.
And Sam, WTF?! Drank demon blood, that's one way to go but sure there would've been other options too. Since Sam's became some sort of idiot I'm not surprised of his actions. Totally normal these days. It was only matter of time. But one thing bothers me, how Sam did know that Alistair wasn't lying ( I didn't hear all the things they talked cuz I couldn't wear my earphones, I took a tragus on wednesday)? Demons lie but did Sam became partly a demon or something =D What ever, I gotta watch eppy again asap =D
I'm not sure what I think about Anna. She's cool, maybe, maybe not. I have really contradictory feeling for her. Umm. Maybe I just don't say anything about her now, maybe later.

I liked the episode, there was a lot of stuff many of was wondering and finally got some sort of answers, but this season had been quite boring and like I said, the only reason I watch supernatural is Jensen and Misha. I just don't believe there's nothing to be done so this season could be saved. And I'm kinda disappointed the way this season has turned out cuz I was crazy about Supernatural during first two seasons.. Let's hope that the 5th season will be better than this one.

and to save Supernatural:
1) Get rid of that fucking stupid botoxbitch Cortese
2) Do something to Sam (New clothes would be a good start)
3) Stop the Heaven/Hell thing (at least the heaven, to religious for my taste)
4) More Misha
5) More scenes where's Impala, I just love her.
6) Dean/Misha ;)

That's practically my dying wish.

And another topic then; I saw Watchmen today and oh my gosh ! I just loved Jeffrey Dean Morgan. Could the movie be any better when the first scene is with JDM ? No. And his character, Comedian, was lovely. Harsh but lovely. And the entity was great too, I really liked all the characters, they turned out really cool. And actors made the characters alive the way I never imagined. I have to have it when it comes out in DVD.

yay, I'm going London today ! so excited. I've been there before but not for this long. We're staying for 4 days there with my friends. I'm little nervous about the tube but.. well, maybe we'll manage. And if we won't, we're tourists after all, we can always ask :__D
We're staying on Lily Hotel, it seems pretty good place and my friend suggested it to us. She's been there and she said it is nice and it's not too expensive. And that is so true. It wasn't expensive.

But now I should go to change some euros to pounds but.. i don't want to walk down to city, it's like 3km to there :SS and there's too cold and too much snow !

OMFG my life seems so much better now. I got MacBook like two hours ago and I'm already in love. So in love.

MacBookMacBookMacBookMacBookMacBookMacBook <3<3<3<3<3<3 (almost like big mac :---D but this is so much better !)

LMAO ! Now I made history .. Maybe not on positive way but I did; I've never ben into headmister office but I'm going there within half an hour. And u know what the reason is ? Cuz I don't know how to behave and I left Finnish lesson 3 minutes earlier so I can catch my train. And 2day when I entered the classroom, the teacher yelled at me that I have to go to the headmister office at 11 sharp. And now I'm laughing so hard cuz c'mon, this is high school !! This kind of stuff just doesn't happen.

And oh yeah, I do love my mothertongue teacher, love her a lot (not). And she has noticed that.

I so have to be sick.. guess what I've done now.. Icons.
Don't really have anything to say so here are the special guests of the night.

[10] Kristen Stewart
[12] Robert Pattinson
[2] Twilight Cast

comments appriciated/credit if used/blaablaa u know it anyway.




( Yes, you are exactly my brand of heroin. )

ei voi jaksaa päivitää englanniks, sry guys who won't understand finnish. No can do.

eh, koeviikko alkais huome latinalla, olenko lukenu ? en. Kokees saa olla mukana kaikki mahollinen mitä keksii apuvälineinä, poikkeuksena latinan professori. Joten ajattelin siinä sitten että vois ottaa kirjan ja kännykän ja jtn muuta jännää mukaan. Mut saas nähä miten sekin menee. Sitten ois wanhojen reenit 12:45 ja jee, nekään mene VIELÄKÄÄN ihan putkeen ja tanssit tosiaan 12.2. ensimmäisen kerran. Way to go and yay for me koska en osaa ! \o/

Sitten toinen asia mitä oon tänään mietiskelly, on tuo rakkahin tammani Zelektra. Ah, niin ihana kuin se onkin, en saa sitä kisaradoille enää varsomisen jälkeen ja haluaisin panostaa Rassen kanssa reenailuun, joten.. tsädäääm, päätin että vuokraan sen jollekkin tutulle joka haluaa vain pompotella ja silloin kun mieli tekee niin tehä jotain vaativampaakin, ehkä jopa hypätä. Mut saas nähä, en vuokraa sitä ihan kelle tahansa ja täytyy viel äitenkin kanssa jutella et mitä tehään. Mutta Feetu on <3

Vois mennä juomaan kahvia vaihteeks, eikä se ois kun 9 kuppi tänään joten kyllä, oikein terveet elämäntavat kunniaan !

omfg lmao, I made a new header to myself and ... it looks ridiculous. I still have many things to learn with psp. but I think it's better than my last one.. Reflects more my intrests atm than Jacoby Shaddix (cuz Robert Pattinson = <3 ).

any how, now Ima gona drag ma bum bum in da bed.

I feel like I need a vanilla latte.
I feel like I need to go to sleep.
I feel like I need a new header.
I feel like I had a great weekend.
I feel like I'd like to take a re-run. Soon.
I feel like I don't want to wake up tomorrow.
I feel like I don't wanna go to school on Monday.
I feel like I'm too tired atm to say anything clever.
I feel like I'm obsessed to Twilight.
I feel like I fell in love with Robert Pattinson.
I feel like he's a great actor.
I feel like a teenager.
I feel like this post is unnecessary.

Then should we go to the "I need" -list ?

I need vanilla latte.
I need to go to sleep.
I need a new header.
I need a new computer.
I need more money.
I need my own Edward or Robert.
I need..
I need..
I need..

fuck.

Maybe I need a life.

2MORRO !

Sry guys, long time since I last updated with icons. Last time was like... in May ? OMFG. But anyways, I'm back with icons now. And this time I made icons of Synyster Gates, thnx to my friend, I probably wouldn't heard of him w/o her. :) Man he's gorgeous. And Jacoby Shaddix is too. They both are. But this time I made icons just Syn, I don't have enough energy to do icons. Gotta go to work 2morro. But anyways.

[8] Synyster Gates (Avenged Sevenfold)




( you don't play guitar with your neck bro, you play guitar with your bum bum )

Joo eli siis lj cutin takaa löytyy pitkät pulinat 2008 vuoden Asylum Conista, joten sinne siis jos haluat lukea :D Pidän merkinnän julkisena niin kauan kun muistan (lue: todennäkösesti son sitä si aina). Mutta juu, pitäkää kivaa.

( I wish you'd shut your piehole, but we don't always get what we want. )